my looks my decision

okey, this is so fucking messed up! I cant make one single decision by myself. i wanted to colour my hair today, lie Hayley (singer of paramore) and it would really fit me. but oh no. its too close to graduation, and even though the fact that I would look super hot with my Hayley hair and my 1800s dress, Im not allowed to colour my hair, cuz it wont "fit with the style of the dress" or whatever. its my hair. MY HAIR. shouldnt it be my desicion? its so fucking messed up.