i need a hug... fuck i miss her....

You mother fucking fuckers!! I needed to talk to HER! and you just told EVERYONE that i felt bad. even though i told you i was fine. you mtrfuckers!!!! just fuck off will you!!! just fuck off!!! you just ruined everything!!! fuck off!!!!

chapped

i thought that i shouldnt start this with "so..." but, yeah, feels wierd. I dont know why im writing right now. but.....yeah..
i miss my girl....

i've been rejected...

this isnt goin to well... its kinda fascinating how one tiny thing, can change everything...
i just... everythings just...i just...im just...numb...but im happy, cuz tomorrow im goin to my gf. u know... i miss her, alot...and...this just doesnt feel like home. here i have to play pretend...pretend im someone else, someone im not. u know... do you know how it feels? could you even imagine? how it feels when your closest dispise you, just because of one decision..one love...a lifestyle...could you even imagine? how it feels to give up...to just let go...to feel no pain, no happiness, no sorrow...could you even imagine? being in love...with one person...when everything just feels perfect...just one person... that makes you feel alive again...one person...holding your heart in her hands...could you even imagine? trust.

tell me tell me can you feel the pressure now...?

So...now im happiiiiii ^^ cuz my photoshop cs2 works! ^^ YAY! i been using some shitty HP program to make my pics smaller for about 3 months.. and i whould have gone mad unless my pscs2 would have worked now! ^^ and today is my lucky day! ^^ cuz tomorrow im goin to my whife ^^ mihih .. gees...to u think im happy or what? hahaXD AND! ive got THE gift! im gonna give it to her tomorrow!
YAY FOR US!!
Emma <3 Vicky!!!

I miss our babies.....

its not hard to fall...

and i don't want to scare her....
and i don't want to loose her...

...it's not hard to fall...