Let the best man win

so...this is me singin some random song at the culture school thingie here in smalltown karlstad...and now i should probably do my history shit bout berlin...

If you live by the sword, you die by the sword...

I open my eyes, but I still manage to dream
This cold bathroom floor, now just feels like home to me
I stumble to the mirror, and I naturally start to clean
But my body's scorned with marks,
that say "these aren't the last lines that I'll see.."

So please cut this string, attached to my wrists
Buried in my shaking palm, I hold this evil in my fist
I relive my pain, with every scar
It's a battle field of memories, that just won't go away, for me....

This world has tied me down, and the knot keeps tightening
Cause I'm just a puppet, dangling from this breaking string
But maybe I'll turn, this blade the other way
And roll up my sleeves to let the scars show my mistakes

You couldn't make the cut, so now you'll make this cut....

I can't breath, I'm in need, where's my crimson savior?
No I won't crawl back just to bleed,
Forgive me,

I promise i'll stay clean...

There is no blackboard in the sky on which "god" has written your purpose, your mission in life...your purpose is what you say it is. Your mission is the mission you give yourself. Your life will be what you create it as, and no one will stand in judgement of it. Now or ever.

Just for the record...I don't believe in "god"

KAWAII!! ^^

Mr Gary's sleeping on my shoulder!!!! NAAAAAWWW!!! ^^ HE's SO CUTE!!!

Im so fucking pissed off right now, i can't even write...

FUCK OFF YOU ASSHOLE AND LEAVE MY GIRLFRIEND ALONE!!!!!!

Göteborg!

heres the thing! were goin to gothenburg! this saturday! yay. just me and her! so. now im like.. happy! ^^

this is not my home

First of all.. i wanna start with an open message to

BLAZER PROPHET

who has left comments on my two most recent posts. Im gonna get a tattoo with the writing " Write it down". that sentence has helped me alot. so dont push it man. you know nothing..so dont judge me cuz im "young". that shit just pisses me off. and abou the anger. i know i have a lot of anger, a lot of regrets and sorrow. thats where the "write it down" comes from. im grateful for your comments, and id love it if you kept commenting when u feel like it.. but.. yeah. haha. now i dunno what to write. no offense man. haha. so. yeah. now im all normal again. and the reason why i started this new post wasnt to make an open letter to you.. the reason was cuz everything is really fucked up. truly fucked up. i just had a "discussion" with my dad. and i kinda tolt him that me and vicky was thinking bout moving in with eachother. and he was all " i moved to my own place, and ur mom was there all the time, but it was my own place. you should consider that." and. i dunno if my parents know that me and vicky are togehter.. but.. if they havent realized that now.. there blind. cuz its kinda obvious. oh well.. now they know about the moving in with eachother.. so.. i guess its fine. but everything feels so wierd. and vickys parents have gone mad...theyre like.. fighting with her all the time. and all.. and i dont know why.. but i get so pissed off. cuz they havent got a reason to do that. and there just ruining everyting. and everything is so messed up. the only good thing bout it all is that ive got vicky and shes got me. its us.. just us. and no one can change that. cuz ive fallen so deep for her. and yeah. i should stop now before i go crazy...

my looks my decision

okey, this is so fucking messed up! I cant make one single decision by myself. i wanted to colour my hair today, lie Hayley (singer of paramore) and it would really fit me. but oh no. its too close to graduation, and even though the fact that I would look super hot with my Hayley hair and my 1800s dress, Im not allowed to colour my hair, cuz it wont "fit with the style of the dress" or whatever. its my hair. MY HAIR. shouldnt it be my desicion? its so fucking messed up.

me want...

I wanna get a tattoo.. and i want it now..
jesus fuck i wanna get a tattoo

thks fr th mmrs mtrfckrs

so.. i think today is my finding-great-music-day. haha. i just found like.. two more bands, and of course i fell in love with their music. so. today is definitly my finding-great-music-day.
and this weekend will be my spend-alot-of-time-with-my-girlfriend-weekend ^^ yay! everything feels so greeeat! its like.. gees. im so fuckin happy! ^^ lite so i have like three tests/examinations what ever you wanna call it PLUS two essays or whatever in the next two weeks.. and i have no ide what im writing now but oh well. haha im happiiiii and that is all that counts. haha. odd. i NEVER write when im happy, only when im sad...or really really miserable. haha. but now im happe MTRFCKR!!!!! in your face!!! muahahah! u know im talkin to you! XD gees im ultra happy today. haha XD. oh well. now im gonna listen to some badass great music!!
SE YA!!

music for the silent mind

http://www.myspace.com/krazylordyoyo
"do you think i care? i don't i don't i don't"

i don't know... in some way.. some wierd way...
i fell in love with this music.. don't ask me why..
but for some reason.. im stuck. so..

i salute you Krazy Lord Yoyo i salute you

"this song is wrong"